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If you’re one of those people who thinks executive dysfunction only happens for things we don’t like (school, cleaning,) then please consider the fact that I’ve been meaning to plug my phone in for 20 minutes and I’m now at 2% and still putting it off to write this post ¯_(ツ)_/¯

My anime/video game list consists of over 100 titles, easily, and yet I almost never get around to watching/playing any of them.

Executive dysfunction is not just for boring or unenjoyable things. It’s for everything. Even eating.

What is executive dysfunction? O.o

Put simply, it’s difficulty/inability with initiating tasks. The prefrontal cortex is responsible for executive functions, like decision-making and impulse control. People with ADHD and other neurological disorders that affect the prefrontal cortex often experience difficulty making decisions and performing tasks, as well as exercising self restraint. Part of why people with ADHD tend to procrastinate so badly is out of genuine inability to begin tasks, even if they’re very important.

It feels, for me at least, like I’m constantly waiting for something and I can’t start X task because I’m waiting. I never know what exactly I’m waiting for, but that doesn’t stop me from wasting hours and days not doing the things I need to do, even if I have a desire to do them.

It feels, for me at least, like I’m constantly waiting for something and I can’t start X task because I’m waiting. I never know what exactly I’m waiting for, but that doesn’t stop me from wasting hours and days not doing the things I need to do, even if I have a desire to do them.

Oh thank god, someone put it into words.

For me it’s also waiting for the “right” time to come to complete the task because for some reason my brain thinks doing the task at any other time is horribly, horribly wrong, weird, and out of order. The “right” time might come eventually, might not. It’s a lottery.

This is literally the reason why I am in academic and administrative limbo with my school right now. I cannot complete my work because… cannot. And I cannot go into the admin office and withdraw from university because… cannot. Some indefinable circumstance just isn’t right yet, and therefore I just cannot.

It makes my life hell.

hi! just jumping in on the welding train: so, I’m a community college student, and I’m studying philosophy, like an idiot. my classmates in the humanities and I have no idea what we’re going to get to end up doing for a living. OTOH, my classmates who are electrical engineers, dental hygienists, and yes, specifically welders, are the ones who have employers waiting for them with open arms. seriously, one guy had a manager at a plant helping him with a calculus graduation requirement, even.

roachpatrol:

the thing IS, even though humanities and the liberal arts don’t lead to money, i think it’s incredibly important for there to be people out there studying these things, keeping them alive and current. philosophy, art, history, literature: these are the things that make being human more than just an animal slog from birth to death. these things are invaluable. 

unfortunately, late stage capitalism means that the ultrarich want to turn everyone else into peasants, and deny them any beauty or meaning or education or dignity, and thus the humanities and liberal arts are called worthless, funding for them is slashed, and there’s less and less jobs that make any use of them. it’s bullshit, but that’s how it is right now. 

so… tl;dr: learn humanities, THEN learn welding. get a cool job and be a well-rounded citizen at the same time!

what about literature and cultural studies majors who are also smol, fragile nerds, not at all suited for physical work? not asking for a friend.

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alright don’t be mad but. i never read the great gatsby. i know i was supposed to. yes, it was assigned to us. i even know, more or less, what happens in the book. technically, i wrote an essay about it, i think, once or twice. 

at the time, i hadn’t read any book assigned to me. ever. it wasn’t that i didn’t like to read. i loved reading. but homework took place in a function of my brain that i couldn’t access. i would sit in libraries or at my desk and just. not do my homework. i spent hours like this, days like this, years like this. just not doing what was assigned to me, no matter the consequences, no matter how badly i wanted to be doing it. i just wouldn’t. and i wouldn’t go to class because i didn’t want to deal with the fact i didn’t do the homework. and then i wouldn’t get the homework. so i didn’t do it.

i remember realizing while i was doing college applications that i had actually, real-life fucked up. that it was permanent, what i had done. that i had a C- of an average and no future to look rosy at. and i still couldn’t make myself do things. i tried to submit applications only to realize i’d shoved off the date to the very last moment. and i was fucked.

it takes me three years and two transfers and three new starts before i am actually real-life trained how to study, how to read, how to enjoy being assigned things. 

and i watch parents of my students yell at students for being the same person i was six years ago: screaming at an A-, confused at skipped classes, punishing missed homework. and these students don’t have an answer. they just don’t do things. even if they want to. and they look at me, confused and defeated and without an answer for their parents. “i just can’t,” i hear a lot, and i understand.

parents don’t like “executive dysfunction” as a reason. “anxiety” and “depression” are often misdiagnosed as “procrastinating” and “lazy”. kids just learn they’re like this. that they’re always going to be. that it’s their fault, permanently. they are surrounded by books they didn’t read. and it doesn’t feel good. it feels like suffocating.

today i started “the great gatsby.” i promise. one day, it’ll feel easy.

me. this is me. this is my struggles with school ever since school stopped being easy. (so when i was 14 or something)

i still don’t know how to deal with it. i was supposed to start writing my dissertation a year and a half ago, and i haven’t written a single page yet. i’m supposed to present my first draft in two weeks. and i can’t force myself. just can’t.

if anyone has any tips, please please PLEASE help. i am literally drowning in unfinished projects and neglected obligations