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okay so i’ve recently thought up this really neat idea that i’d really want to open a kind of a ‘book club’?? like, a kind of a small library slash bookstore maybe? slash coffee/teashop. it’d be open 24/7 and just be a nice quiet place to go when you’re uncomfortable at home or are in an extreme need for the next book from the series or just need a place to sit in peace and drink a coffee. and it’d also be a safe space for queer folk and maybe include some meetings with authors and other cool people. idk it probably won’t ever happen but it’s just such a nice idea.

was doing some fandom asks with @peterpandyke and came up with 34 ways I relate to Hardison, so I thought I might as well list them here

  1. nerd. a giant nerd. such an enormously huge nerd. amazing
  2. first defence against panic is sarcasm and denial
  3. i, too, would probably oversleep and miss a job
  4. can’t cook
  5. have i mentioned nerd
  6. tries to be cool and all but is in fact a marshmallow
  7. downloads doctor who illegally

  8. is able to pay for stuff but still chooses to download it illegally

  9. has heart eyes for parker and eliot
  10. would hug everybody if he could
  11. has healthy reactions to bullshit (“y’all nasty” “we need jesus” etc)
  12. would spend entire days in front of a laptop if he could
  13. probably watches lots of shitty tv shows and plays a ridiculous amount of shitty games
  14. bullshits his way through life
  15. started listening to taylor swift ironically but now cannot stop
  16. probably sleeps with a stuffed animal
  17. would spend lots of $$$ on geeky stuff
  18. does, in fact, spend a lot of $$$ on geeky stuff
  19. probably regularly trips over his own limbs
  20. takes his nerd stuff very seriously, thank u v much
  21. is a squirtle person
  22. feels like a video game badass but always plays on easy
  23. can and will force others to join him in his nerdery
  24. wouldn’t hurt a fly even if he tried
  25. would send porn magazines as revenge
  26. others think he cute & he just rolls with it
  27. does anyone actually take him seriously
  28. others get hurt by bullets and don’t complain but he prob has allergies and catches colds easily and always thinks he’s going to die
  29. has a tumblr. def has a tumblr
  30. PUNS AND MEMES
  31. has a shitty music taste
  32. but enjoys is immensely
  33. will sing his favourite songs out loud
  34. teachers probably said he’s clever but lazy

Alright: I’m really, really proud of that. Like, honestly proud.

My wardrobe is the invisible corner (literally – after all, if I can’t see it, is it really there?) that gets fucked up amazingly fast, and one that I am entirely unwilling to unfuck. I don’t even know how long has it been this messy – like, way over six months, at least.

I’ve done the unfucking today. It didn’t even take this long – I didn’t measure the time, and there were many breaks, but it couldn’t have been longer than an hour or two. Life suddenly seems so much more managable, you know?

sometimes i don’t feel like i’m good enough to be a student. or a friend. or a hufflepuff. or anything, to be honest.

i’ve tried to write doctor who self-insert fanfiction once, a long time ago. ‘tried’ is the key word, because for all the people who tell me how creative and imaginatve i am, i couldn’t come up with a reason for the doctor to take me with him. why would he choose to pick me up? i don’t have any useful skills, really, nor am i brave.

i don’t even know how friendships work, not anymore. people i’m closest to usually choose to play with me in some way; i’m never sure if they actually like me or if i’m just… convenient. useful. entertaining. second-best, when their real friends aren’t around.

i feel replaceable, like nobody misses me. like i’m nobody important. like my life has no meaning for anyone. like people wouldn’t notice if i wasn’t there tomorrow.